This morning during my ultrasound the doctor is poking around inside of me with the vaginal probe (and not being very gentle I might add) and he says aloud to himself “now where is your right ovary?” and I say “I don’t have one” and he says “what?” and I say louder and more forcefully (because he is freaking hurting me fishing around down there) “I don’t have a right ovary!” I find this really frustrating because I feel that if I am paying $11,000 to have a procedure done you could take a few minutes before my ultrasound to review my god damn file, YOU SHOULD KNOW I DON’T HAVE A RIGHT OVARY, THAT’S WHY I AM HERE DUDE.
Here is a pic I snapped during the U/S of my follicles being measured:
Follicle sizes today: 10.2mm, 12.6mm, 13.5mm, 8.7mm, 9.5mm
Endo thickness: 6.8mm
Estradiol level today: 2951 pmol/L. (3 times what it was 2 days ago!)
Afterwards, he told me he wants me to take the Orgalutran 0.25 mg that I was supposed to start tonight, this morning. So I bought another dose of it (one day’s worth is $112 fyi) and they took me to another room where I injected it right then and there. The doctor said one of my follicles is getting a little big and they don’t want me to ovulate it which is why I had to take the Orgalutran early. This one comes in a pre-loaded single dose syringe and it definitely stung the most afterwards (for about 30 minutes) out of all of my injections so far, and it was quite itchy afterwards too.
I’m kind of over these injections now. I really looked forward to them every day before but now I really am starting to feel like a pin cushion (which I know sounds cliche or whatever but I get why people say that now because that literally is what you feel like). Today I also have the sensation of feeling very full/having pressure in my lower abdomen. It kind of feels crampy and my lower back has really been bothering me (like it used to when I would get my period). On a positive note I asked the doctor today why I can’t take antihistamines and he said because I am just freezing my eggs (as opposed to doing IVF I guess) that he doesn’t care if I take antihistamines or not! I got home from my appointment at 10:00am, took an antihistamine (non-drowsy) and slept for three hours. These hormones are really sucking the life out of me.
Can you see all of my needle poke locations here?
I’ve been weighing myself every morning because I hear that women can gain 10-15 lbs while doing this. So far I haven’t seen much of a change but I have a feeling that will change soon…
Had another appointment early this morning. I drove 50 minutes to the clinic, was only there for 15 minutes to have blood drawn (Estradiol levels today are 929 pmol/L), pick up four more days worth of meds (aka $2100 if anyone is interested) and then drove an hour back home in rush hour. Needless to say the commute is my least favourite part of this whole process.
Anyone who knows me knows I am a very low energy person anyways, but the last few days I have been extremely tired, not sure if that is from the hormones or not. I know fatigue is a possible symptom but it also could just be me.
I have pretty significant environmental allergies (I did allergy shots weekly for 3 years in my late teens/early 20’s) and the amount of pollen in the air this year is INSANE. And to top it off apparently it’s recommended that I don’t take antihistamines during my hormone cycle. So I am pretty much trapped indoors while the weather outside is beautiful and hot. But I don’t want to go outside, be exposed to the allergens, have to take an antihistamine, and ruin this very expensive procedure. Praise the lawd for Netflix and all of the summer shows that have started recently 🙌🏼.
I do my fourth set of injections tonight and am looking forward to it as usual (not being sarcastic)!
First injections were today. I was 100% excited and 0% nervous. Which is weird because I thought that I would be nervous about the actual insertion of needle into skin BUT here is what happened:
Because I had my injection teaching session over a month ago I decided to check out Youtube for a little refresher on how to mix the Menopur (my dose for Menopur is 150 IU but I found the instructions weren’t totally clear on how much saline to mix with it). So when I got home after being out all afternoon I grabbed the Gonal-f injection pen from the fridge where it has lived for the last month and raced upstairs with excitement. I sat down at my desk with all of my supplies (which I laid out last night because I’m a weirdo and am was way too excited to wait to do it all today). I started to mix the Menopur concoction and asked my Mom to come up and take a video for snapchat (obvi) of me doing the injection. Now obviously with snapchat you only have 10 seconds so I couldn’t be a wuss and be afraid and mess up the video (god forbid I don’t document my first injection on social media). So I swabbed an area of my belly to the left of my belly button, grabbed the loaded syringe, told my Mom to start the vid, and the needle went in like a knife into butter! Really, it did. If you are doing this yourself as well, the key is to try your best not to think about it, just grab it and put it in; the more you think about it the more you are mentally torturing yourself.
Next up, the Gonal-f pen. So this drug comes pre-loaded in an injection pen and I forgot 90% of what the nurse told me about how to use it, so back to Youtube I went. But the video I watched wasn’t my pen exactly and it was showing something about setting it up for first time use, and I didn’t remember the nurse mentioning that during my teaching session so I decided to check out the ginormous instruction sheet that came in the box. After setting it up, I twisted the pen to my dose of 300 IU, swabbed a different area of my belly and in the needle went!
Overall I am very happy with how it went and very excited to see how the next few days go.
P.S. – I watched another video on Youtube last night and one woman said she became so bloated during her injections she looked like she was 6 months pregnant…. So here’s hoping that does not happen to me, I mean come on guys, it’s SUMMER.
P.P.S. – Below is a picture of my supplies and a pic of me being super excited with my Gonal-f pen 😀
Had my blood work (Estradiol 104 pmol/L this morning) and ultrasound today. Ultrasound looked good which means I can start the hormones tomorrow! I’m ecstatic. Yay! Yay! Yay!
On my drive back from the clinic I was feeling crampy and thinking to myself, how the eff do women get their period EVERY MONTH. The cramps, the back pain, it’s miserable. It reminded me of that scene in the Netflix show Sense8 where Lito is linked to Sun and he experiences what her period is like and he is such a little bitch about it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=3&v=P_2mXH6Ap1U if you want to check it out). But since I haven’t had my period in so long that is exactly what I felt like! Before I realized it was cramps I was like what is this pain in my abdomen? I do not feel well. Then I got home and went to the bathroom and much to my surprise I got my period. Not stoked at all. I asked a friend who has recently gone through this process and frozen embryos and asked if once she started the hormones the period stopped. She said she couldn’t 100% remember but she thinks it was a full normal period. Ummmmmmmm WHAT?! I was not expecting to get my period throughout this process, so it is a big negative shocker. Guess I’ll be buying some tampons today!
Birth control pills. Hate them. I spent the first two and half weeks with pretty bad nausea every day. Also, I am a very low energy person, but these pills are making me EXHAUSTED. Finally the nausea subsided, but then the birth control gods were like ‘nahhh, let’s let this bish suffer some more, let’s give her super sore titties!” And so they did. Just walking around they hurt and I have to hold them against my body with my hands when I go up or down stairs (and let me tell you guys I do NOT have big boobs so it’s not like they’re flopping around all over the place), but the stair jiggling is enough to make me whine about it (whining is something I do well if you haven’t noticed). Thank fuck that I only have two more days of taking them and then on Friday I go in for another ultrasound and blood test!
Last Friday morning I drove out to the fertility clinic at 7am (too early to be awake in my opinion) for an ultrasound and blood test on what was SUPPOSED to be day 1 of taking my hormones. The blood test was for Estradiol. During the ultrasound the doctor pointed out some follicles on the screen and measured them. Then he pointed out this huge follicle that was HUGE in comparison. ‘Nooooooooooo,’ I cried out. I knew this was not a good thing after reading about Jenny’s ‘monster follicle’ on her blog Chill the Documentary. (ps.- I cannot wait for her documentary to come out later this year!). My three normal follicles were 3.7mm, 3.9mm and 4.9mm, and the huge one aka ‘Big Daddy’ was 19.5mm. The doc said that if I were to start the hormones that day (as planned) that the smaller follicles would be suppressed, which is obviously not what we want to happen. What we do want is for as many follicles to develop as possible so that they can retrieve as many eggs as they can when the time comes. He said if Big Daddy was reacting in a certain way to my natural hormones then it would continue to grow and starting the hormones that day would not be a good idea.
I was at the clinic from 7:30 am until 9:00 am and had plans to take a ferry to Vancouver Island at 11:00 am. So the plan was that I would pick up 3 days worth of hormones and bring them on my weekend trip so that if once the blood test results came back I would be able to start that day. The clinic said they would call me in a few hours when the results of my blood test came back and they would let me know if I could start the hormones or not. I was in the cafeteria on the ferry when a nurse called and said that I was not to start the hormones that day. They were going to put me on a birth control pill called Marvelon for 25 days continuously (until June 19), and then go in for another ultrasound and blood test on June 23. If all goes well that day I will start the hormones on June 24 with a retrieval date between July 5-7. I was pretty disappointed that I couldn’t start the hormones that day because I was really really really looking forward to it and had planned some work related things around ultrasound/bloodwork and retrieval dates.
So looks like I’ll be checking back in 3 weeks!